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1:00am. I was studying PSY 113 - psychology for personal and academic development. I have short attention span. =P So, im blogging now. =D

2day was a rather uneventful day. Dreaded waking up early for church. Wish they'd make church not so early in the morning. Church was extra long today and it didn't help that i was so sleepy. Slept very late last night. Don't ask why cuz i ain't telling =P

After church, got home and contemplated going for pakour. Not that i pakour, but i thought i'd just go for fun since Christine was like ajak-ing and all. Im a lazy pig & a sleepy head. So i ended up sleeping till 8pm! There goes pakour. =.="

Woke up for dinner. Mamak-ed. LOL! Got home, twittered, facebook and studied. Yes, i actually studied. Miracle ain't it? I mean, really studied finish 1 subject. Considering my repressed urges to climb i did rather well with the studying. You see, everytime i climb, i get adrenaline rushes or whatever you call it. And it 'enables' me to erhh stay up the whole night to study. I kid you not. I do a whole lot of studying after i get back from climbs. And on days that i dont climb, I DON'T STUDY! ok, its more like, i do try to study but its pathetic. So, yea, 2day's like t 1st time i actually studied so much without climbing. =D

I feel guilty for sleeping the whole evening tho. I could have studied more. But i was feeling a bit frustrated and sleepy so i decided to sleep since i couldn't climb. Oh, i was oso getting memories of things that i didn't wanna remember. Yea, so i went to sleep to forget them all. Which brings me to the famous line that goes, "depressed people sleep a lot". I'm guessing that the logic behind this is because sleep kills time and so instead of sitting down the whole day and stoning, they sleep. And sleep is kindda like a temporary escapism cuz you kindda don't think of the things you think about in waking hours when you're asleep. Well, sometimes you do....in dreams. But again, it depends how deep asleep you are and whether or not that thing is something really bothering? Yea....

Oh well, i didn't plan to blog about that actually. I wanted to like melepaskan emo and geram-ness here. But, i don't know how to express it anymore. o.O I guess i have learned to repress them so much that i don't know how to express them anymore. Haha. I don't know why. Even when it comes to talking, sometimes i don't really feel like, well, expressing what i feel. I mean like, the whole world can see that i have a prob, but when they ask me what's wrong, i just cannot put it into words to tell them. =.=" I know, i have a problem, and psychologists have an exact name for this problem but i can't remember what it is. LOL! But apparently i have friends who are like that to.....so im guessing that its quite a common prob and that its not that major? I don't know. But i know sometimes people are like so frustrated at me cuz they wanna know what's bothering me, but i just won't tell. Haha.

I guess all i can say to melepaskan emo and geram is IM NEITHER HERE NOR THERE. Yes, stuck in the middle, monkey in the middle, piggy in the middle, whatever you wanna call it. Don't ask me what its about, cuz i won't know how to tell you what its about either. =.=" Human beings are complex. Some are easy to read while others are just...unreadable!!!

That's "hello, my friends!" in French. Haha. I kindda miss the times when i had to remember a little bit of French for my Hospitality and Tourism classes. I also miss the times when Dr. Simic (the H&T lecturer) would get so excited and start speaking to us in Croatian. He's Croatian. Haha. We would all go like, "ha? what's he trying to say?" Haha. Anyways, that's not what im going to blog about 2day.

2day was a rather.....eventful day. Friday, the day that i have ZERO lectures or tutorials to attend & the day that i usually end up climbing. =D However, 2day was different. Woke up at abt 9.3oam. Felt kindda sleepy but was still thankful for a little extra sleep. Been sleeping really late & waking up really early lately. So anyways, got myself ready to go to uni cuz i agreed to teman Jason & Christine for lunch at 12 noon. So got to uni by 12 noon and we lunched at McD's. Rather, they did. I was kindda UN-HUNGRY *this word is only found in the Jane-Dictionary. Use it at your own risk.* Yes, so i watched 9 hungry people occupy 5 tables at McD's.

Was suppose to attend a meeting/briefing regarding January Intake Orientation Night 2010 at 12.30pm. Duu was in Ampang, so the meeting was postponed to 1pm. Tah pau-ed his usual McChicken set for him then went to meet up with someone. By the time i was done, it was 1pm. Just nice. =)

Meeting was smooth sailing. I know u're wondering why we're still doing orientation night when we're no more in HMC right? but yea, 2day was our last day in HMC LEADS. The last event we had to plan and hold for HMC. So yes, we didnt do the whole planning lah. We were there to help out and guide the new committee since we have experience. So, met the new committee of HMC LEADS although the new President is yet to be installed. Had our discussion cum briefing. I must say the new committee gave a rather good 1st impression. To me lah. LOL! Some of them were very responsible and had initiative. Didn't really need to tell them every single thing that needed to be done. They knew what to do. So meeting was cool. Ms Rene, the new lecturer was cool too. She's so funneh and fun. XD

After meeting Duu, Jason, Nickson, Melanie and i drove separate cars to some building to collect 50 drums! They're called Jambe's of im not wrong. So yes, these drums were for the night's activity, which i will explain later. So, i got to see a rehearsal in progress and a trial recording in progress. Cuz the drums were in the recording studio. Yea, very interesting altho i was there for only a short period.

Got back and ALAKAZAM! the new LEADS committee was cekap. They got the deco and backdrop up alreadeh! AWESOME =) So work was easy altho the stress of keeping the event to schedule was rather....tough. LOL! People came late and we started the January Intake Orientation Night 2010 at about 6.30pm if im not wrong. Haha. One of the 2 biggest stressrs were that Duu was stuck in a freaking dead lock jam with the guitar and bass amps and that we were running a bit...fast altho we started late. We gave the African Dance 15 mins but they only took about 5 - 8mins. Rather fast.

So Damian, the MC had to....kill time. =/ Made the audience play games and talked a lot of rubbish. Haha. No lah, it wasn't really rubbish at that point of time cuz we were trying to kill time, but if it had been following schedule, he wouldn't have needed to lengthen a simple sentence. Haha. Fortunately, it was one of the most or rather the best orientation night that LEADS has organized so far. The crowd was very engaging. Not like malu malu and all. To me the best or most interesting activities were the Lecturer's Performance (the Out of Tune Band *that's really their band name! i kid you not!*), the Presidential Candidates' Speeches and the Percussion performance cum workshop by Lewis Pragasam.

Personally lah, the most fun was the Lewis Pragasam appearance. Hehe. This is where the 50 plus drums that we fetched come into play. So, just in case some of you dont know, Lewis Pragasam is a percussionist. Not a mere percussionist. A world renowned percussionist. He has performed with various celebrity artists and also does his own recordings and albums. He also started a few music festivals in Malaysia and performed in other music fests like Perth Music Fest. One of his major projects was the Asiabeat project. Go google that. So yes, he is a really awesome percussionist. And it has always been my dream that my uni formed a orchestra sorta thing. So 2day, i got my dream come true. Well, not a total orchestra, but it would do for now. A drum/rhythm orchestra. Can you image about 54 students getting the privilege to learn to drum with this pro drummer. I think its like awesome. Unfortunately only 54 because we didn't wanna bring too many of his drums outta the studio because its not easy to transport musical instruments and you have to handle them with great care.

So yea, 54 drums banging to one rhythm at different beats and pitch. Awesome much? You actually get music. I kid you not. It didn't sound like rubbish ok. It was good music. It was music. Not just random banging. You can actually hear the pitch difference and the arrangement of different beats but 1 rhythm. Like an orchestra, everyone is 1 sound. No one stands out. No one stood out. Everyone complimented each other and formed a single unison. It was a really beautiful thing to hear and watch. Being seniors, we didn't try it out with him lah. We gave the juniors and the lecturers a chance. But really, it was so awesome. He also split the audience into groups and they each came up with a mini composition. It was interesting to watch and spot talents. Haha.

After he was done Jeslyn and I faster go take picture with him. *don't have that pic yet, so cant' upload. its with the college camera.* Haha. He was like so nice and humble. Not like some stuck up celebrity. Mmh, yea, i think it was the most awesome part of the orientation night. He actually proved that a 100 over group of students can work together to produce 1 sound! Teamwork and leadership mannnn..... Seriously, not easy you know.

Presidential Candidates' talk was...interesting? Haha. You get to see the very, unique personalities of the President Wannabee's. Haha. So mean right. I shouldn't call em wannabee's lah. President candidates lah.

Oh well, it was a really, really good orientation night. I want to congratulate the new HMC LEADS Committee on the success of this event and commend their character, responsibility and initiative shown. So, from here, i officially say au revior to HMC LEADS. The past year was a year full of experiences and im glad to have had the opportunity of working with all of you. I wish the new committee all the best! =)

I'm hungry! Gonna grab food and fb and talk to kak ash abt something. =P Ciao!

Hellow.....

I
smile on the outside
but
its killing me on the inside....

Well, here i am again. Not feeling so awesome 2day, but i learn awesome things in psych; like how to appear happy when you're not. Therefore im gonna apply them in life and hide the not-so-awesomeness that im feeling right now. Oh well, we dont actually learn the 101's of how to appear happy when you're not. We learn about relationships and communication. So, sometimes letting out whatever you're feeling doesn't always make things better because may it hurt the other party too.

This is not in the textbook, but i just have this theory at the back of my head that expressing your negative feelings = reinforcing them. For example, writing them out or talking about them sometimes can make you feel worse because you're kindda letting yourself mope around in it. Like reminding yourself that you're feeling this way and so on. So, i have been trying not to express my feelings too much. It does seem to help SOMETIMES, tho not always, but its good progress for now. I have to admit there i times i fail and all my frustrations end up on Twitter, but im learning...slowly. Its of course only a theory because i haven't done a research on it. No empirical evidence. However, there might have been researches done before i even had this idea in mind so you could go Google or EBSCO it up if you really wanna know if my theory is an already proven fact. LOL!

I dont know if i should talk about my day or about what i learned in Intro to Psych 1 or my perspective of things or the people/things i have observed or i dont know. Haha! There's really so much to talk about. I hate it when i have so much to blog but so lil time. Heh.

To cut the boredom and seriousness, i'll start the ball rolling with a Zucker Rat.

Jeng jeng jeng....meet Mr. Zucker Rat

Clocking in my hours. I know i haven't blog for 4 days alreadeh. Ive let my blog sleep longer than dat lah, but aiya, i just wanna blog more regularly this year lorh. I'd start with a random conversation dudu, dila and i had sometime ago;

Dila:
Dudu, ur blog dead lahh
Jane:
Oh yea, t last i saw, your blog memang dead. Long time i haven't visited your blog.
Dudu:
Haha! Long time i oso haven't visited my blog

*dudu was so excited to edit this video till he nearly forgot to timetable for degree!*
*good thing kak ash reminded him*